Posted: 22/07/2016 at 21:03
I had to step away from the thread for a little while. Come Monday I was shattered heading into work and I could also barely walk on my ankle. It saddened me to realsie I was potentially fairly well crocked. It was excruciating but I was sure I hadn't knocked it and it came on so suddenly I was frustrated, I had been picking up miles but listenting to my body and ran just 1 10 miler since March and built around more doubles and shorter runs. It continued all week though and I haven't ran since Thursday last week (bar Saturday) or really done anything to that affect so feelign sorry for myself. I had a lovely day with Mia and Mum Wednesday though which cheered me up
I had a rough time with the neighbors and a busy weekend with Mia over the weekend, feeling tired but going on how I felt, what I look back on to be a little cold turkey perhaps, it's a bit strange going from upto 8 tramadol a day to nothing instantly. I really think I had a mental check regarding the painkillers (Tramadol) I ran out on Wednesday / Thursday and perhaps coincidentally the pain came on I began to question was I over doing things but worryingly possibly coming to terms I was a little addicted, keen to the high feeling and being able to run through anything, perhaps trying to force fitness, were they masking any more serious niggles? Had I completely been able to run through this not feeling pain? I had some niggles that I felt but this was not right and I hadn't complained about my foot till the day pretty much
Looking back at this week today I'm hurting, mentally and physcially still. I still can barely walk, I saw Kyle and Oli, who did massage and acupuncture. Oli now is doing his PHD and working part time / on placement with the NHS physio and rehab system working with a whole range of people, kids to elderly suffering with wide variety of ailments and disabilities (some which make my problems a walk in the park) so I can't get better than that really, all be it limited experience form him the other hand is Kyle who is working for a pro cycling team now and seen my body throughout last few years
So it's my left peroneal under neath the ankle bone, Kyle seemed to know and remember when I had the issue before but I couldn't. My ankle is locking up and it's stemming from the insert just below the knee so I had massage etc up there to try loosen things up. I also am paranoid that the spasms / nerves problems in my left side which I've felt are possible link? There was no apparent tissue damage as no swelling but it feels like my ankle has snapped off.
I've tried hot / cold treatment. Ice on it's own, self massage and ankle mobility and it just feels worse or just no better, very stiff and painful, I spoke to Kyle today and I will return to him but unable to till Tuesday next week perhaps with work. It hurts to walk, every step I am limping, going downstairs strangely is about the only thing that doesn't hurt. I'm absolutely gutted and I am battling another grind. Mentally I don't think I have the will anymore. My body just isn't handling it. That said I know already I could do so much to help myself, diet, strength work, mobility and shit. I can't just give up.
I have to remember I took 7 weeks off and came back ok. Maybe too quickly I get that now.
Back on to the whole running and arsehole thing though. I can't deny this week I have had the least pain for as long as I can remember. Now that surely can't be a coincidence after stopping running. I haven't even taken my Gabapentin or dihydrocodine which is cheekily staring at me now. I have had some throbbing and some discomfort but hurts to admit the noticeable change. Maybe of course a few easy weeks will help anyway and hopefully won't be too long.
MRI date also came through. 5th August so two weeks today, in my eyes that's